Misha

NA NA NA NA HEY HEY HEY GOODBYE!

2004-03-15T04:03:23Z

Heart of Stone

What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
brought to you by Quizilla

Now I truly know this is not true ... i got my heart stoned is more like it....pass it already...hee hee. But in all actual reality it prolly comes pretty close. But for all those I like ... I treat ya pretty nice and let you in to see the real me. Wait, I don't like anyone...just kidding.

Now this I don't get....why would earth need me that bad to keep...clearly the quiz is whack...I tried to get hell.

Reincarnation: You are nice enough to go to heaven,
but Earth won't be as fun without you. So you
shall come back as someone or something else.
As a real optimist and lighthearted person, you
always see the good in things. People probably
respect you for your wonderful personality and
love for life. People like you make the world a
happier place (please rate my quiz)

**Where will you go when you die?**(now with pics)
brought to you by Quizilla

sinink @ 2004-01-22T15:13:00

2004-01-22T21:19:31Z

I just wanted to let everyone know that I am the coolest person in the world! :)

Okay now that I've said the most important part of the posting...moving on.

FRIENDS:
What does the word friend mean to you? It's a tough question when you think about it....go deep here people.
I have found some of the most wonderful people in the world. I just wanted to make sure Liz and Pat knew that. That I can go for months without seeing them or talking to them and just pick up where we left off. Way to be cool guys.
By the way did you guys know you're getting married in like exactly 72 days.
Let's start counting down....sorry I know it might frighten you. HEEHEE

sinink @ 2003-09-06T20:43:00

2003-09-07T01:47:48Z

YEAH I'M GOING CRAZY WITH ALL THESE QUIZZES. HA HA HA HA. sorry......

What Natural Disaster are you? Take the quiz!

Destruction, the sixth of The Endless, you are a
rebel. You abandoned your realm, refusing to be
held responsible for all the disasters in the
world. You roam forever, trying to escape what
you are. Always on the run, and never facing
the truth, you live in denial. It's not your
responsibility, it's not your fault, and it's
not your problem, even when it is.

Which Endless are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

You are Smurfette

Granted, you're
cute as heck... but sheesh! Try and grow at
least some bit of spine already!

Which blue critter are you, anyway?
brought to you by Quizilla
I really tried for baby smurf...i don't think it's gonna happen.

"When Doves Cry" (by Prince)
How could you just leave me standing,
Alone in a world so cold?
Maybe you're just too demanding.
Maybe I'm just like my father--too bold.
Maybe you're just like my mother.
She's never satisfied.
Why do we scream at each other?
This is what it sounds like,
When doves cry.

Which 80's Song Fits You?
brought to you by Quizilla

sinink @ 2003-08-30T09:09:00

2003-08-30T14:12:28Z

sinink @ 2003-08-30T08:53:00

2003-08-30T13:54:21Z

Primary Ability: Farseeker Farseekers posses the ability to communicate over great distances via telepathy. They are great friends who know when they're needed, and seem to be able to detect others thoughts.

Secondary Ability: Empath Empaths posess the ability to feel the emotions of others. They are gentle people, who encourage and nurture others. They percieve the world with their hearts and not with their minds. Empaths make great friends because they understand people.
What is your Misfit Talent?

sinink @ 2003-08-06T14:47:00

2003-08-06T19:47:57Z

Are you damned?
Brought to you by Rum and Monkey

You will die a warrior and be spirited away by warbling wenches to the Hall of the Slain. Meat and mead for ever more, well until Ragnarok, anyway, when you will do battle with giants, giantesses, dwarfs, elves and Nidhug, a dragon who likes to nibble trees. Odin is great!

YAY! Ha ha ha ha ha ha. Just what I expected. ha ha ha ha

sinink @ 2003-08-06T14:20:00

2003-08-06T19:21:04Z

Fight Club!

What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
brought to you by Quizilla

Tell me this is wrong....*pouts*

I found Life in Red Wing

2003-06-17T17:07:01Z

you're the daredevil! you love to take risks and be
on the 'dangerous side'. Just dont make any
wrong decisions!

What Pin Up girl are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Wow this weekend was great. I forgot how many people i know in Red Wing. I went to a party Friday night and saw people i havent seen (or wanted to in some cases) in years.
Turtle, Matt, Aaron, some chick and me wandered downtoen for like ever. I was gland when I finally ditched turtle so I could go back to the party and see Anna before I left. And as I was leaving...i ran into Jessica...who preceded (not on purpose) to drop her beer all over me. Thank god I didn't get pulled over...i had been drinking a little.
Saturday I called Anna because I didn't get to hang with her much at the party...mostly because turtle wouldn't leave me alone. She and I decided to go watch a movie...then out of no where she's all "can Mike Domeir (i spelled that wrong) come with". Okay i haven't seen that boy in like decades. So of course i'm all for it.
We went and saw "Bruce Almighty". Then after the movie we all parted our separate ways. I got a call from Turtle again...he wanted to go out to the casino (mind you this was about the third time saturday that he tried to get me to go to the casino). So i went out there with him and ran into some other people i haven't seen in a couple of months or so. Won ten bucks off of three quarters. And about three hours went home and crashed.
Sunday: went to the family picnic. Saw my cousin Joe...listened to his insane stories from being overseas. He's in the coast guards. Went home...called Mary Jo. Went to Lake City to hang with M.J. And the turd leaves me on the beach have drunk. Oh all be right back my ass.... None the less. I had a great weekend!

sinink @ 2003-04-12T12:41:00

2003-04-12T17:52:29Z

Oh I should also mention that my Aunt did pass in december. It was really hard to handle.

Where I'm at

2003-04-12T17:49:33Z

So yeah it's been awhile. Updates are as such:
As for the felonies. I went to court and the fucking DA said if i didn't take the plea bargain they offered that day..he was gonna pull it off the table and add another felony 'aiding and abetting'. Which is so not the case. But my lawyer said he could add it. So i took the plea bargain. And it goes as such : I have a third class misdemeanor. (ranks with embezzlement). I had probation until I paid my $250 fine.
I'm over it now. The judge was a major ass.
As for school, I'm not going back. My friends are here...why should I live even farther away from them.

November

2002-11-11T08:03:53Z

I'm not sure really where to begin. I know it's been awhile since i last wrote. As most of you should know, I'm back from New York due to some bullshit law system we have in this grand country. I'm being charged with two felony's. Felony Fraud and Conspiracy to commit Fraud. YaY! great for me. However in this whole ordeal I managed to make it to class for maybe a week total. So I get to start over next year. YES!
As rumor would have it. Some people went around and stated that I had never actually left for New York all together. I would like to clear this up right now.
My Aunt Suzi is dying. I've been back every weekend and most of every week since I originally left in Sept. It's really hard on my family since for one she's a twin and for another she's the third youngest of 11 siblings. It's been really touch and go. Her breast cancer is now in every single bone in her body. She's on so much morphine that she can't even get out of bed. She has two childeren...her daughter (Jordan) is 12 yrs. old....her son (Josh) is 17yrs old.
Now can you imagine losing your mother this way?

Next on the list.

My dad got out of the hospital yesterday night. Some of you might not know this but when I was 12 yrs. old I almost lost my dad. He had a triple by-pass surgery that year.
it is roughly 9 to 10 years later and he is having heart problems again. He just had and angioplasty done plus also, three stints put into is heart. They say he'll be okay, but you never know how things just might sway.

With all of this bad news, there is still a light at the end of the tunnel. My boyfriend. Who I am choosing to remain nameless until he is back from Jamaica. Yeah Yeah Yeah and no it's not Max.

For the haters out there who choose to spread false lies about me...here's the real truth, I hope this works for you better.

For all of my friends who I have yet to get a chance to see. You know I luv you and am dying to see ya. Give me some slack and I'll get there sometime THIS year.

Responses

2002-09-30T20:11:54Z

Apperantly some people think that everything i say is about them. Well it is. :)
Now I didn't take sides in anything. I was out right lied to by someone I once considered my best friend. Now to be told that I don't know anything about her anymore is true. Cuase why would she call any one that knows the true side of her anymore. I sat there and watched you push at Nate and push at Nate. You have a tendecy to do that to everyone. You always have to have your way. Now me acting like i'm not your friend is way off base. Because in my eyes right now i'm the only one who will tell you the truth. Now I know Nate has his issues too. Your money was his too. I get that. And I wasn't just using Nate as an example in my last entry. But you need to start taking some blame and some responsibilty in your relationships. Now i'm taking this from what you've told me and what i've seen. None of this is hear say. I am happy for you. I never said that I wasn't. Go You!

Dorf: I miss you lots. You have no idea. :)

Well I guess since this my journal I should talk about me. Well I met some really nice people out in NY. I got my belly button peirced, the first day I got out there, with my roommate. She seems kinda shy but defeinetly has a wild streak just waiting for me to take out of her. So like there's some prospects out here. Some really nice looking guys. Steve is one of the guys in my dorm. He's there for theater. He's like my Turtle mixed with a little Eli. Kinda like my soul mate. It's hard to describe. But that's enough about me. My flight for home is shortly

To My Friends

2002-09-29T17:47:49Z

Alright so i've been reading someone's live journal page...i'm not going to mention who.
And i've found myself very annoyed with that persons attitude and those who've comented on this perticular persons whining. Hello yes you are a self-centered bitch. I've told you that my whole life. Yes the person who told you that is right. And you are wrong. What you've done to that person is way worse than what he's done to you. Remember one thing. You lied to all of your friends about this other person, and for some odd reason they all still love you. I'm not sure why. Cause after hearing the other side at xfest I lost all trust in you. And respect. Now i'm not trying to put you down or anything like that but just know one other thing, I'm not like the rest of your followers, I will not bend at your will and tell you everything is going to be okay or that your perfect. Cause I know you better than any other person that claims to be your friend. And I've sat there with you while you were close to being six feet under. I helped kidnap you from a man that was very stalker like and pyscho. In a mess that you created yourself. Oh but wait my effort wasn't really worth it cause guess what, you still choose to hang out with and talk to this loser. So for all those people out there who lay pity on this peticular person, I have one thing to say to you. Don't ever put yourself on the line for "insert name here" cause all it will do is backfire, and make you look like an ass.

Now to mention names and shit like that:
Ris, I told you so. You damn flake. I told you that you still had feelings for Ryan and yes you were hurt by his behavior. But is Misha ever right in your eyes? Nope. But guess what, i'm not as stupid as you think. HA
good luck with Ryan, i doubt it will last long though cause you still want Colin. And if you ever get Colin the way you want him...hee hee...kinky....you'll hurt him like every other guy. You know i'm saying all this to press your buttons. So go on...prove me wrong Ris.

Moving on:
So NY is pretty cool. I've got a little secert that I haven't told anyone back home yet. But I guess I have 6 more months to do that in. Love you all...

Updates

2002-05-13T16:43:15Z

As most of you know. Max has made a choice about us. He wants to see other people. Which is totally cool by me. But didn't he say that he loved me and didn't want to be with anyone else. I just wish people really knew what they wanted and stop confusing me on a daily basis. I started seeing Ryan Rodewald on thursday. I'm not sure how that's going to work out. I really don't want back in the drug scene. And being with him would put me back there. Plus he will never amount to anything. I know i could just use him and play his ass. But i'm getting kinda lazy on that idea too. I'm not sure but i think being with Max has totally wiped me out. To much effort. It's really hard to explain. I saw Chad today. He's all lets go have some fun Mish. Right. Fun with him would end up with another person on my list. I'm just so sick of everyone just wanting to fuck me. WOW. Did i just say that

sinink @ 2002-02-27T11:23:00

2002-02-27T17:06:00Z

YELLOW

You are very perceptive and smart. You are clear and to the point and have a great sense of humor. You are always learning and searching for understanding.

Find out your color at Stvlive.com!

You are most like Basil, assaulted by bears!

Created by Thren.
Which Gashlycrumb Tiny
are you?

Krank

2002-02-20T18:02:13Z

I swear sometimes I think no one knows me. I don't know why he called me then. He says it was just to talk to me. I'm sorry I was geeking. I didn't know I'd lose the one person that I actually wanted in my life. I'm sorry I hurt you. But I can't change the fact that I did it. So he won't talk to me. And now i can't deal with it.
Everyone wanted me to party with them last night...which would've involed more Krank and other things. I didn't go for the pure hope that he'd call. And if he did call i didn't want to be around all that. I really hope that i can get back what i lost. I can't promise that i'll stop doing Krank but i can promise that i'll do my best.

sinink @ 2001-12-30T14:15:00

2001-12-30T19:53:52Z

So i finally saw the xfest pics....damn do i look fat in those pics...and what was i thinking wearing my hair like that. I must have been to drunk. Nahhhh not possible.

Well with all the shit i did in the past couple of weeks my current weight is now 107.
I think that's a little better then the last time i checked when it was 94. Yeah i do eat.
I'm not sure what to tell Jessie tonight. I'm not sure how i want to break it off. It's the whole setteling down thing that i just can't do. But after what he got me for christmas i just don't know what to say to him. He got me a 32" tv and a 75$ gift certicicate to Express. Damn that boy rocks. But I really don't want him. And i feel like i'm using him.

sinink @ 2001-12-12T11:55:00

2001-12-12T17:39:16Z

I lost my job over the weekend. That sucked. Now I have to do a drug test...oops. There's no way i'll pass it. At least I'm not going to jail for someone else.

sinink @ 2001-12-05T01:03:00

2001-12-05T06:46:38Z

Excuse me Karissa for just one moment. Since when did my smoking pot kill our friendship? I think it clearly ended when you walked away from me. That was your choice. I hate to be the one to tell you this but you are far from perfect. Drugs or no drugs, our friendship was over the day I finally caught you in a lie. Don't you ever say that I'm a lier. Cause girl I don't even come close to you. I'm not a slut. So you can stop saying that one too. If I remember correctly you're the one that fucked all our friends, not me. Oh and everyone else's friends too.
Anyways. Back to the drug thing. Pot should be the least of your worries. And just so that you can rest at ease about it...i only smoke pot once in awhile. Like three times a month maybe. But you won't beleive me on that. As for you smoking pot. Sweetie you know you smoke hella pot so give it a rest and stop giving me the lecture.
The real reason our friendship ended is because you used me for everything. And I finally stopped using you for your car. You're a bitch and you treat everyone as if they are lower then you. I'm better than you on so many levels. Like for starters I treat my friends with some respect. Maybe you should learn that. Cause when you do learn that, you'll see why people don't like you.

sinink @ 2001-11-25T21:56:00

2001-11-26T03:40:43Z

So I found out today that Jeff got 4 years and 2months in prison. great. I miss him so much already...now I have to wait 4 years to see him. He's not the only one of my ex's that I miss. I saw Mitch and Rick yesterday. That was interesting. We talked about the drugs mostly. I guess Mitch is going back to Italy in three months. That's awesome. He's gonna hook me up with some cool new clothes from there. I guess he doesn't hate me anymore.
So far I've heard from all my ex's but one...what else is new. I guess I don't matter to him anymore... *shrug*

sinink @ 2001-11-05T02:43:00

2001-11-05T08:29:29Z

I really wish i could touch him. Something about him that gets to me. I'm not sure if what I feel is real any more. Cause i thought he felt the same. Maybe being friends is just to hard for some males. All i wanted was someone to talk to. Someone to forgive me for my sins. I guess that was to much to ask from him.
I'm still holding my breath max.

"Time" 05-10-00
As time goes on
and the pain shifts through
like a never ending song
with everything we do.

With lies as friends
the best kind you know
Nothing seems to end
just go with the flow.

Abd as everything grows on
just like people do
we are just pawns
in a chess game for two.

But as time flies by
and the memories fade
the tought of you makes me cry
only in the shade.

I thought I loved you
and everything you said was true
But now things are like chains
and time has everything to gain.

sinink @ 2001-10-27T03:58:00

2001-10-27T08:43:28Z

Damn am I ever hot! So I went to the casino cause Turtle ditched out on me. Which okay. I met up with some really awsome girls. They we're having a party at the hotel there. They invited me up there with them cause they thought I was really cool. I met this really hot guy. His name was Johnny. So he and I were sitting there drinking and talking about the couple that was making out in front of us. We ended up telling them they were kissing all wrong and that we would show them how it was done. Damn that boy can kiss. :)
He gave me his number...but hey i'm not gonna call. Cause it takes more than that from a guy to get me interested. :p

sinink @ 2001-10-09T11:40:00

2001-10-09T16:27:50Z

Wow the only person that seemed to care about me is a guy that i played. Willy is a really nice guy, even though he's a little stupid. But so far he's the only friend that has shown me any kindness. I called Ris. I don't think she really cared. She seemed so distant. I wish Jeff wasn't in jail. He'd be here in a second. God why do you hate me?
I just wanted someone to talk to. But nobody was there.
So, if you're reading this...fuck you max. I guess we're really not friends. It's that or you're just to busy to be my friend. You know that song from Limp Biskit "sex" is perfect for you.

sinink @ 2001-10-07T15:31:00

2001-10-07T20:18:50Z

Yeah i went and visited him. That was weird and very uncomfortable. I swear to god that he hates me and doesn't have the heart to tell me. He never talks...i always have to start a conversation. Jesus just speak up. If i'm talking to much and you want me to shut up. Tell me. Be straight up real. Cause i'm gonna treat you the same way.
I don't know what it is about him anymore. But seeing him really made me think. Ew. Bad thought. Badddddddd Misha. hee hee

sinink @ 2001-09-29T02:22:00

2001-09-29T07:10:21Z

Well I must have really made him mad or made him think. Cause he hasn't talked to me. All i want is to be friends. See the xfest pics, and get out of this life. He just makes me to sad. I still like him. Don't get me wrong. But there's nothing I can do about that. He doesn't like me. Fuck it. Screw even talking about it. Cause all it does is ruin my buzz. Makes me sad and depressed. Am I not good enough to just be his friend either? What a loon.